Confusion

Hm... these last few days nearly everybody i know (and some people i don't) have been coming up to me and asking me to draw them.
Its all because Christina got lazy and asked me to draw Chad, Kolin and Alex for her. Then Dakota asked me to draw him.
Then the day I turned in my drawing to Dakota, 23 people wanted pictures.
Then yesterday 17 people
and today 8 people...
It's getting exhausting and annoying.
I get home, and then from that point till I pass out I'm drawing and coloring.
I didn't even finish any drawings today.
Anyways, thats not real important.
I know I said I'd give up on Joe... but I can't. Everytime I see him, everytime he's next to me my heart beats faster and my mind goes numb... weird?
And today, I was presenting a project in Spanish with Michelle, Sarah and Peyton and he kept looking at me... I know some of you prolly think that its just cuz I was presenting...
But I wasn't even talking most of the time. I literally said like 2 things. Over a span of like half an hour.
I wasn't presenting much and I wasn't taking part in the discussion... and yet, he kept looking at me. Kept smiling and looking at me. Then he kept raising his hand and usually he doesnt participate at all... so ya kno, Sarah called on him to come up and write something on the board and it was right next to me....
And he seemed really nervous. . . Idk if it was cuz he was up at the board (even tho he volunteered) or cuz he was next to me (cuz i was frickin nervous!)
but his hand was clenched in a fist and he held it up against the dry-erase board and it looked like he was really struggling to make his hand-writing look good (even though his hand writing kinda sux... ok, it really sux)
OH! And then yesterday he was presenting with his group and ... idk...
He was doing the Paso Cultural for his group (haha, I did that for my group too!) and his voice is deep (i already knew that, but u didn't!) and it was kinda shaky... Then again, i know he was probably nervous..
But a lot of people have been telling me he's really stupid... Like today, He got an answer right in Spanish so Mason was like "Damn, Joe! You actually are smart?!" and then in Math one time (Christina has him in math) Jimmy was teachin a group of kids to do some things and he commented "It was tough teachin Joe..." And then joe was like "What do you mean?" (And he was angry) and so Jimmy said "Well... you're not exactly the brightest tool in the shed" and Joe got angrier... i dont remember what happened after that... but then Cora said that she thinks he's retarded.. (but cora's a retard so I dont' believe her) and idk...
i'm probly boring you and i wouldn't be surprised if you stopped reading a long time ago....
well... till next time I suppose... cya