Creepy

Haha
I feel like such a creepy stalker weirdo
for putting that pic of Joe up. lol
everytime I see it, i cover my eyes in embarrassment
I feel like such A CREEPERR!!
haha
anyways... I'm so excited
only 3 days of school left!
2 of which are half days!
I've finished my final exams for American History, Science, and English.
Tomorrow I'll finish Sewing/cooking and Spanish
And Idk if I'll finish Drafting or Math.. =T
But yeah. All we're doing in English and A.H. is signing yearbooks and watching movies!
And apparently I got an A on my a.h. final cuz my grade went from a B+ to an A- .. yay
Oooh!
DRAMA ALERT!
Kay, so there's this HUGE BITCH nina. she's a fat, ugly, retard and friends with other fat, ugly retarded people. every1 in the school hates them. such FAGS.
anyways, I saw nina passing around a pink slip of paper to some of her friends in 7th hour.
And then, after 7th hour Cora comes up to me with a .. Pink Slip of Paper. Curious?
She's like "look what nina gave me"
I look at it. and OH eM GeE!!
It says
"Trolls (cora) shouldn't be allowed in the library!"
and then its got 4 pictures of trolls.
And then it says "Wannabe Emo"

I know, right? So I take the slip of paper and me and Cora march up to mr. bennett (VP) and we show him the note.
It was the end of the day though, so he said he'd address her about it tomorrow.
I kno ur prolly thinkin "Oh, ur a taddle-tale"
Now, normally I wouldn't ever tell on anybody. Even if they punched me
cuz i dont like authorities.
BUT she told on me first.
About a month ago.
Got me suspended. So it only seemed fair.
Plus, my other option would be to punch the snot out of her and well... she'd tell.
And get me in trouble.
Plus its the end of the year, I dont wanna miss it. Signing YEARBOOKS! =D And final Exams.
Welp, this is turning out to be longer than I thought it would... hmhm.
Till next time, cya!

Yearbooks and new hope :)

Today in school, we got yearbooks. It was pretty awesome.

Only, there's 3 pix of me in there. 2 of which, i HATE!

not to mention, i don't like my school pic.

In one of the pix, im at the 8th grade dance and i look like a drunk fat loser.

and in the other one, it was halloween, i literally put a costume together that morning.

and it looked like shit.

The pictures are in this blog.

also there's my school picture with my twin sister on the left, catie, who i talk so much about, cora, who i talk about.. =T and SURPRISE! there's a picture of Joe. Granted, his hair's longer now.. idk if u think he's gorgeous, but I do.!

Anyways.... I think Joe might like me.. ?

Here's my reasoning:

For the longest time i thought i was just assuming it cuase i liked him.. but then i realized, way back in the start of the 2nd semester, i didn't like him. But i still thought he liked me back then... so i couldnt have imagined it cuz i didnt like him.

And also, there's no way somebody who duznt like me would look at me THAT MUCH.

and finally, today i went over to my friend Christina D's desk and she sits right behind joe and i not only had to pass Joe in the isle, but we were like 3 inches away from touching chests. There's more! I saw him look down at my yearbook and he just kinda stared at it for a while.. and by a while i mean like a full minute straight. And then when Christina was signing it, he actually turned around in his seat to look at it. Then he looked up at me and he saw me staring at him and he immediately blushed and turned away. I know it doesnt sound like much, but you had to be there. I want to sign his yearbook. I would totally put my phone number in it!

So I have new hope that Joe likes me. With only 4 days left of school... Greaaat.

Oohh and also i was watching the MTV movie awards last night.

TWILIGHT WON LIKE EVERYTHING!!

i was sooo excited! I even texted my vote for twilight to win best movie. :D

Anyways, till next time, cya!

Surprise

I learned something interesting today. You've probably heard me mention my friend Ian... I used to like him but we're just cool now. Anyways... I always looked at him as total un-boyfriend material (no I dont like him again) but... I found out today that uh... not only has he like takin alcohol shots off of people (body shots) but also.... uh he's not a virgin... . I'm not really sure what to make of this...
I mean I do still think he is my friend. It would take a LOT more than this to ruin that... but idk... its like the little innocent part of him I thought I knew is gone and... its replaced by a sorta ........... mysterious part of him... I want to learn more... You know, who where when and all that. But he duznt seem to wanna talk about it... like he's a shamed of it.. and that just makes me wanna kno more!
It's odd... I can't really explain it... But idk..
Its like I have a new-found interest in him.
I don't like him... I just want to know more about him! I realize we never really talked about his past. Mine, sure. But not his...
Oh! On the lighter side of things, I got an mp3 player today... Okay, well actually I got it Xmas '07 but I couldn't find it till today. I put a little more than a hundred songs on it today (there will be more!) and ugh! I LOVE IT TO DEATH! literally, cannot stop listening to it!
Oooh, you should check out the song Forever by Papa Roach.. its really good...
Anyways,... no real news with Joe... :(
except he made the cutest face today! Literally I wanted to like take a picture of it and just stare at it for hours! He looked like a happy little kid! He had this cute little grin and his eyes were so shiny and he was so attentive and ugh! I loved it!
But I felt so bad for him when he was presenting in Spanish.
His 4-man group was presenting their Spanish Dialogue and they messed up so badly! There was like a section of just silence where nobody could remember who was supposed to say what next.
Joe was trying to get it back on track but... it didnt work that well. The kids were laughing and I felt like crying! I was embarrassed FOR him!
And then when me n Michelle presented.. I did very well.. but michelle... oh idk. She didn't get a lot of time to study and I don't think she's that good at remembering stuff... I mean, I started studying it at lunch and learned it by the middle of lunch.. I'm just good with stuff like that. But I know we got a good grade!
Oh, well I'm tired. got to get up at 5 30.
till next time, cya!

Confusion

Hm... these last few days nearly everybody i know (and some people i don't) have been coming up to me and asking me to draw them.
Its all because Christina got lazy and asked me to draw Chad, Kolin and Alex for her. Then Dakota asked me to draw him.
Then the day I turned in my drawing to Dakota, 23 people wanted pictures.
Then yesterday 17 people
and today 8 people...
It's getting exhausting and annoying.
I get home, and then from that point till I pass out I'm drawing and coloring.
I didn't even finish any drawings today.
Anyways, thats not real important.
I know I said I'd give up on Joe... but I can't. Everytime I see him, everytime he's next to me my heart beats faster and my mind goes numb... weird?
And today, I was presenting a project in Spanish with Michelle, Sarah and Peyton and he kept looking at me... I know some of you prolly think that its just cuz I was presenting...
But I wasn't even talking most of the time. I literally said like 2 things. Over a span of like half an hour.
I wasn't presenting much and I wasn't taking part in the discussion... and yet, he kept looking at me. Kept smiling and looking at me. Then he kept raising his hand and usually he doesnt participate at all... so ya kno, Sarah called on him to come up and write something on the board and it was right next to me....
And he seemed really nervous. . . Idk if it was cuz he was up at the board (even tho he volunteered) or cuz he was next to me (cuz i was frickin nervous!)
but his hand was clenched in a fist and he held it up against the dry-erase board and it looked like he was really struggling to make his hand-writing look good (even though his hand writing kinda sux... ok, it really sux)
OH! And then yesterday he was presenting with his group and ... idk...
He was doing the Paso Cultural for his group (haha, I did that for my group too!) and his voice is deep (i already knew that, but u didn't!) and it was kinda shaky... Then again, i know he was probably nervous..
But a lot of people have been telling me he's really stupid... Like today, He got an answer right in Spanish so Mason was like "Damn, Joe! You actually are smart?!" and then in Math one time (Christina has him in math) Jimmy was teachin a group of kids to do some things and he commented "It was tough teachin Joe..." And then joe was like "What do you mean?" (And he was angry) and so Jimmy said "Well... you're not exactly the brightest tool in the shed" and Joe got angrier... i dont remember what happened after that... but then Cora said that she thinks he's retarded.. (but cora's a retard so I dont' believe her) and idk...
i'm probly boring you and i wouldn't be surprised if you stopped reading a long time ago....
well... till next time I suppose... cya

Giving up

OKay... sooo.. i'm feeling very down right now.
The dance went horribly.
Joe wasn't even there! So much for "wanting to talk to me"
God i'm so stupid for ever thinking he coulda liked me.
At the dance, all the prep guys were dressed as Greasers. It was cool
One of em, a douche named Antonio asked me to dance.
Sure he's cute but he's a total douche. I said yes anyways though cuz i didn't want to seem like a bitch.
Me, Catie, Christina, Michelle, Kate, Garrett, Mauricio, and a few other kids went to Dairy Queen after the dance. Then I hung at Caties for like an hour and left my phone at her house. :(
Haven't gotten it back yet.
i dyed my hair black today.
And there's only 3 weeks left of school. I can't believe I'll be finished with Middle school in 3 weeks... its weird.
I guess I give up on Joe. Officially give up.
Although this kid, alex mcdougall, *friends with joe* asked christina to draw a pic of him, then a pic of chad and a pic of Kolin then one of them all together.
But christina duznt want to draw it.
So she asked me to.
So I think i will and idk... maybe Joe will see them.. :T
Idk.
im confused.
well, till next time, cya.

Stolen Glances

I guess this blog is just more of the same really.
My hair turned more blue in the wash.
The Dance is tomorrow
I'm still planning on gaiging my ears
Joe still seems kinda like he wants to talk to me... and i have a little to add on this.
Again, there was lingering in the hallways. And then in Spanish class, we were signing up for these group things for projects and Joe was keeping his head down while everybody was being called but then when Senora called my name, he looked up at me and idk... even though he wasnt smiling he looked happy. . . ? And then when his name was called he looked back at me... We weren't in the same group or anything. My group was already filled up with my friends and he went to work with his friends (duh) and... yeah.
If he goes to the dance... well.. who knows? Maybe.. hopefully just maybe we might dance.
and the whole while I'm like suffering over this lack of communication and establishment between me and Joe, Christina (my twin sister) is out there, reeling in this guy she likes thats friends with Joe.! His name is Alex and Christina talks to him almost every day and she's already showed him her sketchbook and he asked her to draw a picture of him...
I swear, it just isn't fair.
Christina is the shy one, I'm outgoing. And yet... she's had 3 bfs, she's already talked to the person she likes and she's always kinda bragging about it.
It makes me sad actually.
She gets a guy like that *snap* and I can't even get the chance to talk to Joe. Its not that I wont talk to him because I'm shy (altho i am terrified that i'll say something totally stupid and douch-ish) its just that i literally cannot get a chance!
I hope I turn heads at the dance and he'll notice me. Only 3 weeks left of school after tomorrow. I don't want to waste them.
well, till next time, cya.

Still no answers

Okay. So before I go into detail about my day i have two things to share
1) My purple hair is turning into this really light gray-blue color and I'm like freaking out about it. It looks cool, but I don't think its supposed to happen..
2) I'm gaging my ears. Starting today. I eventually want to get them up to 3/4" ... yeah that'd be cool. Right now their prolly.... uh... prolly like a 12 or 14 gage. So I got a ways to go.

Anyways, now about my day.
I really do get the feeling Joe wants to talk to me. BIG TIME!
OKay, so I was standing at my locker with some friends and his locker's a few down from mine. So I see him fidgeting with his stuff and then close his locker. Then he starts to walk away and then goes back to his locker. He opens it, but doesn't get anything or put anything in... Weird, huh? Then he did that same thing again later. I think he mighta been tryin to come up to me but I had all my friends around me and I know that's intimidating.. =T Anyways, then later that day, It was just me, him, and Catie in the hallway except for a few other people and there was nobody in the gap between me and him except Catie was standing near me. And so he gets his stuff, closes his locker and then just stands there, kicking his locker a little bit... even tho the bottom wasn't sticking out so there was no reason to kick it... I couldn't pick up any signals in Spanish though, cuz we were taking a test... But hm. Really gets me thinking...
I hope he's going to the dance!
Well...I know this was kinda boring. not much to write about. Till next time, cya!