I need true emotions

I must say, today had a lot of ups and downs. Too bad right now its down. So here's a basic layout of my day: When the day started out, Joe wasn't there. Which sucked! cuz i had a convo starter.. But then in the middle of second hour, Michelle and I were sitting in the hallway, reading, when I hear this kid named Jake say "Hey, you're here!" I look up at Jake and he's looking the other way. I follow his gaze and there's Joe. I lean my head out to see him better. (How gorgeous, lol) Then I really didn't see him much again until 5th hour, Spanish. So much for talking to him, right? So sometime during class, I look over and he's looking DIRECTLY at me.. or was he? I couldn't be too sure because he didn't look away or react at all when i started looking at him... But after a straight 3 seconds of pure staring at each other, he smiled. I got so shy i looked down. When I looked back up, he was staring at his desk. Then, when he went to go get a highlighter (which is 5 ft from my desk!), he didn't move his head, but his eyes peered up at me (his head was down) and it looked like he smiled.. or was it a smirk? If it was a smile, thats good. If it was a smirk... I don't know but i don't think its good.. is it? Anyways, the rest of 5th hour passed with Nothing. But then in 6th hour, Math, these 2 kids Ian and Marcus were bugging me about who I like! They would NOT leave me alone, so finally I told them that the last letter of his last name is K, the last letter of his short name is E (Joe) the last letter of his full name is H (Joseph), he's in my spanish class, he's tall, and that his spanish name ends with an N (Esteban)... so those 2 jerks got half the class involved in the guessing! And guess what? 2 of the guessers were people in MY SPANISH CLASS!! I was so scared. Then, after several failed attempts, they guess Joe! I hid my face in my hands. Several of them joked about telling him ... and I wouldn't be surprised if they actually did. In a way, I sorta wanted Joe to find out... see what he'd do... but now I really wish they would've never guessed... Cuz now here's my low. It's silly, but Catie and I were talking about Math class and what happened and she said "No offense, but I don't think you're really his type. I mean, the last girl he liked was Megan" who is this really preppy, slender, pretty girl... How can I compete? I feel so stupid for ever thinking he liked me. Well... till next time, cya.